The versions

One man. Different pulls.

Pride pulls one way. Grief pulls another. Temptation starts talking. I’m still the one who has to decide what happens next.

Jay-K

Me, trying to stay level-headed.

Pride. Proving something. Needing to feel in control.

Heaviness. Isolation. Grief I don’t always know what to do with.

Temptation. Chaos. The part of me that can turn one bad thought into a decision.

I don’t win every argument in my own head. I still have to deal with what happens when I let the wrong part of me take over.